Daily Reflections From My Window

January 12, 2021 Tuesday

“Learning does not make one learned: there are those who have knowledge and those who have understanding. The first requires memory and the second philosophy.”

Alexandre Dumas, The Count of Monte Cristo.

When I woke up this morning, I was sure that it was Monday. Or as my friend Char says, Day 377 of January 2020. What a crazy time in which we are living. I’ll leave it at that.

As many do, I am spending January, cleaning up, cleaning out and regrouping. One thing I need to tackle is my inbox. I hit that subscribe button way too often and am subscribed to so many different things over the year-on 3 different email addresses. I love alpacas, gardening, fiber arts, sewing, community goings on and more and it all adds up. I have to be realistic in what I have time to read and do. That takes wisdom and discernment. I’ve gotta work on both. So, if I unsubscribe from you or you unsubscribe from me, I won’t take it personally and I hope you won’t either.

A few have contacted me about why I made this private. Well, I got the latest Consumer Reports issue on internet privacy and it seemed like a good step. I’d recommend reading it. Kind of scary though.

Here’s what I want to ask though. I think I may be going through menopause. I thought I had already. A few times! But lately, I’ve been getting these flashes of dread. They last seconds and start at the crown of my head and go to my abdomen. They aren’t hot but are a feeling. My doctor thinks it’s hormonal and a fatigued adrenal gland-hence all of the supplements. Maybe it’s the state of the world. Who knows? Have any of you had anything like this?

I want to get back to my fiber and future and feeling productive. It’s hard lately.

I’ve got boxes of fiber to get to the mills to be made into yarn, shoe inserts and more. I think that will help-to move some of this stuff and get it where it needs to go.

So whatever you decide to do today, do it with enthusiasm, wisdom and joy.

Remember to wash your hands, don’t touch your face, stay home but if you MUST go out, wear a mask and keep the length of a full grown llama (which is bigger than an alpaca) between you and the next person.

Have a blessed day!

Daily Reflections From My Window

January 11, 2021 Monday

“Don’t give so much of yourself to others that you begin to disappear from your own story.”

Stacie Bloomfield, from “Give Yourself Margin, A Guide to Rediscovering and Reconnecting with Your Creative Self”

I’m really enjoying this book^ mentioned above. Amy gave it to me the other day as a gift. She knows I’m struggling with what to do next and has always thought of me as a creative being, even when I didn’t, and thought this book would get me some clarity. I read a few pages a day and think about what it means and even though it’s only been a few days, I’ve made some big decisions.

I’ve decided to let go of publishing Macaroni Kid for my area at the end of this month. This was a big one. I’ve been publishing for almost 11 years. I learned so much, made so many wonderful friends, and really felt that it helped our community. I hope it continues. I have little say about who takes over. It was truly my passion project, but it’s time for me to get back to my roots of creating things and that part of me has been buried under learning how apps work, or website design…I need to feel things in a tactile way, so that’s part of why I made this decision. To get back to fiber. Maybe even sewing again. Did you know that I am a trained dressmaker and tailor and had my own custom clothing business way back when? I loved it and met every project as a puzzle. But I needed a change from that for a while and now I am woefully out of practice.

And then there’s the herd. I’ve got a lot of fiber to go through, get to where it needs to go to be made into incredible products. I can’t do it all myself, but have been fortunate to find fellow alpaca folks who share their resources freely and I now have a few leads for what I want to do.

Today is looking bright. It may not be as sunny as it has been, but it’s bright with the snow. It’s about 18*. Brrrr. Yes, we are still covered.

I have to head to Tractor Supply today for some alpaca food and other items. It’s good to have a goal for the day.

Remember to wash your hands, don’t touch your face, stay home but if you MUST go out, wear a mask and keep the length of a full grown llama (which is bigger than an alpaca) between you and the next person.

Have a blessed day!

Daily Reflections From My Window

January 10, 2021 Sunday

“Patience is necessary, and one cannot reap immediately where one has sown.”

Søren Kierkegaard.

It’s about 10* to start today. Brrrr.

I think it’s supposed to warm up. Or at least I hope so. I have to do herd health and it’s so nice if it is a bit warmer. It’s also more pleasant if the alpacas are dry and for that we need a few days with no precipitation. 🤞🏻

I don’t have much to contribute to the world right now.

Yesterday I went and picked up the remaining inventory from the Merry Makers event at Bottle Works. The shutdown cut down the foot traffic and sales were slower all around, Melody shared, but she also convinced me to keep a variety of items there because as she says…it IS January and warm items sell.

I wish I’d thought to take a picture.

Then we had some friends over for dinner after a nice long walk and it was so nice! They are so sweet and Amy, knowing of my health challenges, gave me this book. I can’t wait to dive in to it.

Right now I’m waiting for online church to start and then out to tend my livestock. Then fiber. I can’t wait!

Remember to wash your hands, don’t touch your face, stay home but if you MUST go out, wear a mask and keep the length of a full grown llama (which is bigger than an alpaca) between you and the next person.

Have a blessed day!

Daily Reflections From My Window

January 9, 2021 Saturday

“People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which they seldom use.”

Søren Kierkegaard.

The sun woke me up today. It popped up earlier than it has recently. What a welcome sight. It’s been too long without it. You can only take so much vitamin D to combat the gloom. Even the alpacas love it! Last night we spotted these deer in front. It’s been a while since we’ve seen anything there.

I spent yesterday out of the house almost the whole day doing errands and it was so nice. I went to the chiropractor, Conzatti’s, the Zebra Stand, TJ Maxx and then home. I ran into my friend Dawn at TJ and she was headed to Conzatti’s and I ended up going back with her to see what she liked. She shared her favorites and I found some other goodies.

We had a wonderful dinner last night from Conzatti’s of crab cakes, broccoli salad and a tortellini salad. Tried to watch Escape to the Chateau but it wouldn’t come in so we ended up watching Star Trek. I have to say again how interesting it is to watch these episodes as an adult. Some are ridiculous, but last night we watched 2 and they were both interesting. Full of philosophical conundrums that only Kirk with his common sense and Spock with his logic can figure out. The first one was about a virus that was killing ships full of people because it sucked them in and everything worked backwards. They had to figure out a way to kill it before it killed them. The second was about a planet that was peaceful and all of a sudden the Klingons show up and turns the people violent. For once I stayed awake during both. I love to watch the costumes though. Captain Kirk is usually bursting out of his clothes while everyone else has lots of room to move. It makes me chuckle. And then the women are always pretty much scantily clad. Because, you know, by 3000 or whatever year it’s supposed to be, we’ve come so far…Kirk DOES make an interesting reference to “the wars on the Asian continent of Earth in the 2020s”. Interesting.

I’m really trying to make sense of the crazy news. It almost seems like we’ve sold our souls to big tech. I’m working hard to get off of social media, but would really miss all of my fiber groups, friends and connections. I love when friends and family share photos and updates. I would really miss that.

This is pretty amusing.

If you want to continue to see what we’re up to here, you’ll have to subscribe because this is the last cross post I’m doing. I will definitely be going back to fiber chat. It’s what I do.

Remember to wash your hands, don’t touch your face, stay home but if you MUST go out, wear a mask and keep the length of a full grown llama (which is bigger than an alpaca) between you and the next person.

Have a blessed day! Enjoy the sun!