Daily Reflections From My Window

August 31, 2021 Tuesday Rainy Day: Smile at someone today!


“Peace begins with a smile.” Mother Teresa

I said to Jay last night that I miss our friends. One of his good buddies Doug Thompson passed away unexpectedly a year ago and my friend Edyce’s husband passed away from pancreatic cancer just about a week ago. I miss them both so much and I wish I could cry but I can’t. The sky is doing it for me I suppose.

I miss more friends too who have gone on because they too have passed on or they’ve moved, we’ve been doing different things, or, oh yeah-everyone is still kind of locked down. I miss my church buddies, old and new. They helped keep me on track. And I miss my routine and taking the familiar routes. I still get out and about, but take different routes. Since I am not publishing MacKid, I am in a different mindset. I’m not as plugged in to what’s going on locally as much and I miss that community, online and in person. I was always learning something new with that sharp community of publishers and friends, as well as the friends I made in the community because of it.

I did the ArtWalk in the Park on Sunday. Maybe that’s what triggered this feeling, or maybe just clued me in. It was amazing to do a live event, but it made me realize how out of practice I am and how much I missed seeing all of you in person! I was really tired of talking and it was strange to hear my own voice yakking away for so long when answering a question or asking one about some aspects of alpacas. If I didn’t seem to recognize you, I apologize. I really did lose a little of my memory and I have been so out of the loop, if you don’t look like your FB profile pic and are bigger than that little square, I won’t remember! I miss seeing people smile and it was great that most did not have masks on in the park because it was an outdoor event. I ran to the grocery store the day before to pick up a few things and we all had masks on. As I passed a woman in one aisle wearing a mask, she not only averted her face so as to not look, but she didn’t notice that I was smiling at her under my mask. I miss passing people and smiling and them smiling back and SEEING their smiles.

I’m missing humanity and common courtesy. Everyone seems so angry.

That’s why I’m really looking forward to hooping tonight. Through thick and thin, Dawn is a calm port in this storm of crazy. She’ll have a huge smile on her face, play great music and for one hour, we’ll have fun and have a taste of normal. She doesn’t know how much I need it today. She did just text and ask if I was ok and if I’d be there and when I said yes, she said, “You’ll like the music!” Now I’m really looking forward to it. She puts great playlists together.

How are the alpacas faring today? Earlier when I was tending them, they knew rain was on the way and only Hammy was outside. Now he’s still outside and kind of standing guard.

He could go in if he wanted to.

Yesterday I did a little bit of weeding and was so happy to find someone munching away on our milkweed. Stay tuned. Beautiful butterflies to come. I love these perennials too. I hope my bees like them. Just saw that masks are mandated for kids K-12 in Pa schools now. Gosh, if I feel the way I do not being able to see faces, what does this do to our kids? Reading faces is a part of being human and is a skill learned over time.

Here’s my smiling face so you don’t forget. I am wearing my Sierra Tank Dress in this picture and it’s so comfortable it makes it easy to smile. It’s in the laundry right now. Maybe that’s why I’m cranky.

I have lots of things to organize and unpack from the show on Sunday so I’ll let you go, as you can see from the photo at the beginning of my ramble.

In the meantime, remember to wash your hands, don’t touch your face, get outside for some fresh air and keep the length of an alpaca cria (which is a baby alpaca and about 3 feet long) between you and the next person.

Have a blessed day and SMILE!